being thankful

i dont think i truly take the time most days to really think about why im thankful and what im thankful for.  this past week, was the first thanksgiving that i truly felt at ease since my divorce.  i was finally able to enjoy myself and my family without remembering that my kids are a part of a divorced home, that my family was "changed" since my separation almost 5 years ago.

so while i am thankful for many things, i am going to take a few minutes to talk about being thankful for life changes.  i can say i am thankful for my divorce.  without the divorce i would never have gotten to know the woman that i call my partner, bestfriend, lover, confidante, and one day i will call my wife.  she is an amazing mom to my boys and she loves unconditionally.

i am thankful that i came across the world of BDSM.  while its brought me many tears, i've never felt so free in my life.  free to be who i am and free to enjoy being the one not in control.  it makes me smile to know that i can trust someone enough to allow myself and my pleasure to be in their hands.  the feeling makes me so nervous yet free at the same time.  they are feelings that i truly treasure.

i am thankful to have such a wonderful career, such wonderful kids, and such a great support system.  without all of these things i dont think i would have gotten through the difficult times that i have over the course of the last few years.  i've become such a different person than i was only 5 years ago.  i've become more relaxed, i've learned to laugh again, i've started to learn patience, and i've had to reconfigure my needs and priorities.

this is my favorite time of year, i couldnt ask for more... :)