I wish

I were lovable

I was not broken

A used toy, left to rust

I could smile again

Feel loved

Love without pain

Love without sorrow

Love and trust

Not be hurt, time and time again

I could pick myself up, start life anew

Find happiness and smile.

Like the 21 year old girl

Who first learned to live and love

Only to lose again.

She existed once.

Smiled and trusted.

She knew she was worthless, but she smiled anyway.

With each broken promise, with each vow renewed, she knew, this too will end.

Nothing lasts forever.

Nothing except for the pain

The anguish

The despair.

Powerful yet helpless